Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Remember me?

Sorry for my absence lately, real life has been a rollercoaster. It's from suprise to find out I was pregnant, sickness as morning sickness hit hard and me and the couch became firm best friends, secrecy because I wanted to tell people but wanted to wait until 12 weeks. Then everything disappeared and I knew something was wrong. So last week it was like everything came hurtling to a finale, rang the doctor trying to ask if I was being overcautious but couldn't get through, rang VHI and  I told her my symptoms she told me to go to a&e immediately. Because I was in so much pain, they thought it was ectopic so when they scanned me I felt relief when she said "The baby is in the right place" then silence... I knew in my heart that McLentil Pants wasn't going to make it, she said that because I was coming up on 10 weeks a heart beat should have been visible.
But the saga doesnt stop there,that was just the prelude..I put grieving on hold to focus on the courtcase on Friday. After 3 years I just wanted it over and the way the day panned out I could never have imagined it.
Surely that was the end of the bad luck..no unfortunately not. D was rushed to hospital on Saturday, his liver has stopped working and he had turned yellow. He was accused of being an alcoholic & drug user.... this from a guy who would begrundingly take a panadol. It's hard to stay optimistic but we are ignoring our own pain and trying to focus on each other.
So here we are, a week since it all begun and waiting on a plateau with everything resting on today.
D has his tests at 12 and hopefully we will find something out.
Waiting for my D&C tomorrow and I can begin to grieve properly.

And my final feeling is regret because I regret starting a pregnancy journal and scrapbook. This should have been  a happy post  showing my new LO's so my regret is that it has to end so suddenly.
Thanks for listening x

Thursday, April 15, 2010


I used the bind it all to punch holes in black card to make it look like a film reel and just used bits of embellishments I had around. For some reason the title stamp would not stamp so I filled it in with marker and  went over with glossy accents, gives a nice raised title :) and not at all a mess....
I made the little girl look like an oopma ooppma on purpose.... it's very easy to mix up red and yellow in distress inks when the lids are off but she makes me smile because it looks like she is princess of the oopma oompa's lol
 I got some crafting done!!

Some work from the class

Sorry it's so late girls, real life is mental!!
Louise's embellishments, I thought she was going to buy shares in shrink wrap by the end of the class

Cathy's altered bottle cap, I said alter it Cathy not give everyone the heeby jeebies!!

Kay's gorgeous LO of her grandson
Jenny wasn't too impressed with her challenge of using no siccors but I'm still amazed how she got the pattern perfect..... Jennifer?

Ann's egg inspiration, if she could wear this lil fella see would, an inspiring tag *wish I was doing 12 days of Christmas now
Phil showing off her youthful looks and finally found a use for that gorgeous paper!
Some of Cathy's altered embellishments

Sorry I missed some of the girls work, I only remembered to take proper photos when everyone was gone!